"I was... lonely..." Spot admits - he's never told anybody about this before, but then nobody's ever known to ask "I saw the boys at the gate laughing and joking with each other and they looked like they were having fun... I learned there was more to it than that, obviously, but by then I was already hooked."

He wonders how much Ezra is judging him, whether he thinks he's just some spoiled brat playing pretend. Maybe he is, but he's happy with the life he's found for himself.